Lately, as a few of my friends and family can attest to, I haven’t been feeling quite myself. I usually find a lot of joy in photography and being around nature, but these last few days (almost weeks) I found myself not wanting to leave the house unless going to work. The weather has been beautiful, if not a bit on the humid side, but I couldn’t bring myself to do anything. It all culminated into a very not-so-good day on Thursday where, as I’m fortunate enough to have, I needed many of my friends to lift me up. One in particular was so incredibly kind to me and allowed me to talk out some of my biggest fears. My true emotions are not something that I talk about often—I try to stay positive for myself and others—but I was in a pretty deep hole worried I wouldn’t be getting out any time soon. I’m still not comfortable with sharing extra details, but I will say that if it wasn’t for my amazing, kind, compassionate support group, I would probably still be in that hole, digging deeper.
But enough about that for now. I wanted to express my happiness about photography and generally, the positive vibes and feelings having a creative outlet can give you.
There’s an area close to our house where the river sort of banks out for a bit, a little alcove if you will, where people fish and there are ducks and geese aplenty. I took Louie for a walk down there yesterday and the quiet, the calming sense of peace, washed over me. It was nice to be out in the sun again. As it started setting and we were driving home, the last rays hit this field and I swear it glowed. I absolutely love golden hour so of course, I had to stop and snap a few (or several dozen) shots. There’s just something about the warmth of a sunset, the way it brightens the shadows and illuminates every detail that makes it my favorite part of the day.
When we finally got home I was feeling rejuvenated and at peace. Editing them brought me so much joy. Sharing them on social media and seeing other people responding just as I felt brought me happiness.
I’m so grateful that things are back where they are. I’m so blessed to have my family and friends around me. I hope you have place where you can feel safe expressing yourself in whatever way that is. I hope you too get to feeling re-inspired and alive.